[2020 B&M] Last Comments & 'Birdman'
'Birdman' Dec 26th live, 2020 XIA B&M Online Concert
[Last Comments]
With really just one song remaining, the thing I'd like to tell you is how sincerely grateful I am that I was allowed to hold this concert. It was all thanks to you.
I am a little embarrassed by how I always seem to say the same thing repeatedly; at the same time, I feel apologetic that these are the only words I'm able to offer you -- still, all I can say is 'thank you.' Thank you so much.
The last song is not mine but.. From time to time, I'll receive messages or see comments that tell me, for instance, they were a fan 15, 16 years ago.. Among them, some say they're proud of me; some tell me I've changed a lot -- it could be how I look or other aspects of me; some say I haven't changed at all. They're diverse..
I get a lot of messages telling me how they were fans a long time ago but they had to let go of it because life caught up with them, be it work, other important things, marriage etc. They'll say "My life had been with oppa's music" or some are even like "I thought I'd marry you, oppa. But I'm getting married next month."(laughs) These are the most numerous types of messages I receive. Every one has their story and we all have an impact on each other. People who weren't fans become fans later; people who were fans, whether through external circumstance or willingly because they don't like how I am now, let go of being a fan. It's the natural ebb and flow of things and I am grateful for every moment because they all feel like a miracle to me.
Yet, once in a while, I hear things and they give me a lot to think about. One day, I heard this song by a seonbae-nim singer I like and many thoughts crossed my mind. I related to the song a lot even though I hadn't written it. The song described how I had felt sometimes and how I feel even now to a certain extent, in addition to the gratitude I feel. Seeing these incredibly popular artists, including many hoobaes, brings up many different feelings in me, too. In the general flow of all these things, I hope this last song can be my message. If you know the song, please feel free to sing along in your rooms.
<Birdman>
I wish you'd like me
I wish you'd gaze at me
When I was dressed to the nines,
you liked me then
Where have you all gone
I am still here
You don’t like this
You’re sick of that
I don't think I'm enough
to satisfy your changing whims
If you have another change of heart,
come to me again
This is all I am
This is what I do best
Just when I thought the time-ripe now is good
you say the unripe then was better
I have a secret
I discovered my wings
The painful thorn that was long in my side
turned out to be wings breaking through my skin
The heights I thought I soared
was the empty air of my youth
An unexpected gift of ignorance
I dressed myself up to hold on to it
But this is all I am
This is what I do best
Just when I thought the time-ripe now is good
You say the unripe then was better
Now I look far into the distance
Because I can spread my wings
The painful thorn that was long in my side
enables me to bear anything
I fly but not high
because I’m fine with anything, anywhere
In the end, I want to be loved
and will come down to the ground
Please pat my feeble wings
then