[2020 B&M] Junsu's letter + 'Sea Child'

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'Sea Child' Dec 26th live, XIA 2020 B&M Online Concert w/ Orchestra

[Text]

The whole world had it tough this year

and we're still in hard times.

I wanted to believe it wouldn't amount to much,

that this would end soon but it went on

to the very end of the year.

Our familiar day-to-day came to a halt

and many were left to fumble through

unexpected pain.

The number of our sighs and tears,

the depth of our despair increased

and the small hope that things

could get a little better each day

has yet to be met with an easy answer.

Amidst the toughest days of our lives,

musicals also came to a stop, the one place

that had accepted me when nowhere else would.

When I had to face empty seats and lights

that were turned off, it was heartbreaking.

To be honest, there were times

when I was afraid of the stage.

There were times when I doubted

whether I could fill this big stage.

But, each and every time,

the thing that steadied me

was the warm look in your eyes.

The look that said

'You're doing good,' 'I missed you' and

'Even like this, I'm glad to meet you.'

The look in your eyes that overflowed

with warmth and didn't need to be put

into words; that look saved me.

I told myself over and over again

'Yes, I have received such looks

so no need to dwell on pain or

lose myself to hardships'

This is why, for me, the stage is not just

a place to perform but somewhere

we share our feelings, tell each other stories

and somewhere I give back all the power, courage

and consolation I am able to give.

It is the most precious place in the world.

I was looking forward to seeing your warm eyes

again this year but sadly it couldn't be.

Though we won't be recreating that lovely picture

we always painted together each year,

I believe the day we'll fly together will soon be upon us.

From the bottom of my heart, I send my cheers

to everyone who has survived this brutal year.

When these dark times subside,

in 2021 I believe we'll be looking across at each other,

laughing, singing and dancing once again.

I'll keep my longing inside me as I await that day.

I miss you a lot.

And I love you more than words can say...

From the edge of 2020

XIA

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<Sea Child>

Holding my breath,

Closing my eyes,

Shutting my ears,

I'll go there

Holding you, hand in hand,

I'll go there

Though I'm not a bird flying high above

I'll go lower, into the deep sea

Into the deep sea

Farther and farther away

Feet not touching the ground

Slowly I move forward, not afraid in the least

The more I grow up,

The more the world tells me what my life is

If things are to be as they say

I'll become a child and go to the sea

Holding my breath, closing my eyes,

shutting my ears, I'll go there

Holding you tight, hand in hand, I'll go there

Though I'm not a bird flying high above

I'll go lower, into the deep sea, into the deep sea

Holding you every day, I triumph over everything

I won't give you up, I already dream you every day.

They say it's just a dream and dreams are only to be dreamt

If things are to be as they say

I will become a child and go to the sea

Holding my breath,

Closing my eyes,

Shutting my ears,

I'll go there

Holding you, hand in hand,

I'll go there

Though I'm not a bird flying high above

I'll go lower, into the deep sea

Into the deep sea